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i wasa reading all these old entries...how fucking stupid was i? lol.
immature mainly...its just funnny.
tonight is the Devil Wears Prada show... & my boys..The Beauty of Infamy are opening :)
im so excited for them...its a huge show for them,plus they love TDWP :) im stoked!
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[Tue, April 11th, 2006 @ 11:43pm] |
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Oh, my life isnt all bad right now.
i got to meet the all american rejects before the Fall Out Boy concert..and the lead singer Tyson told me i have pretty eyes.
makes me feel happy..lol
that was fun & the concert KICKED ASS.
& i never knew that Pete Wenz was brothers with the lead singer from Panic! at the Disco..
weird.
makes since since they are both hotties.
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[Tue, April 11th, 2006 @ 11:39pm] |
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Do you ever notice that when you take two steps forward something happens and makes you take 4 or maybe 6 steps back. i hate sometimes how life can be so unexpected but then sometimes the unexpected things are the things that change everything & then you learn from them. As in my relationship with Tony..it felt like we were doing great, never better, until he committed the ultimate betrayal. You can probably guess what it is..and it was with this girl:
Ewwwww
I always say everything happens for a reason but what if it doesnt what if everything that you do will just lead you no where. Then what? i now hate saying that because i used to believe it so much that my current events have made me not think positive about anything. i am so confused with what to do with that situation i dont want to do one thing and regret it later, its weird how one action can screw everything up. So this time i want this situation to just take it course and see where it leads and then maybe i will start to believe again that everything happens for a reason. i hope.
I just wish that for once i didnt feel like i was taking steps back instead i want to take steps forward but no matter how hard i try to get ahead and what not i always feel i come up short.
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[Wed, February 22nd, 2006 @ 1:54am] |
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i dont know what to do about me and him anymore...i dont know what he wants, and if what he wants is even me anymore....ugh.
i have anxious butterflies in my tummy thinking about it because he is my everything, my stability, my love...ugh.
but
on a happier note...i finished the book that ive been making him for a long time now...and i finally decided this is a good time to give it to him.
umm. im 18 in less than 24 hours. FINALLY
im kinda excited for that.
...actually..alot. lol.
well love you all
<3
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[Wed, February 8th, 2006 @ 5:56pm] |
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ugh...
i miss him & i cant help it.
i found myself making him a card for our 2 year anniversary.
which would be tomorrow.
i dont think im gunna give it to him.
that is...even if id see him tomorrow.
im just...i dont know. im at a loss of words right now.
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[Tue, February 7th, 2006 @ 12:43am] |
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this quote made my day:
its my personality all rolled into one sentence. hehe
"IF I WAS A GIRAFFE, AND SOMEONE SAID I WAS A SNAKE, I'D THINK, NO, ACTUALLY IM A GIRAFFE"
Ohh!! & me and melissa is goign to the James Blunt concert in April. Tickets are $25..hehehehe.
wanna join us???
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[Mon, February 6th, 2006 @ 9:01pm] |
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life sucks alot.
i feel empty without him as much as i try not to.
ugh.
whys everything have to be so difficult??? & why cant it all be like it used to be??? i miss it.
and no matter what he does to me...i still love him. i still cant stop thinking about him.
the only thing i like right now is
school. cuz i like my classes.
& then i go home & sleep. til the next day.
fun huh?
yea i think so too.
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| We are Falling Apart |
[Wed, February 1st, 2006 @ 12:09am] |
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i feel like the most nieve girl in the world right now.
im so down and low...
everything that was oncestable in my life and the only certain thing is faling apart right in front of my eyes
and theres nothing i can do about it.
me and tony's relationship is hanging on by a little thread right now, ive always been so certain that we could make it through anything considering what we have been through in the past...and now the hardest thing so far is just agreeing and knowing when to fight and when to let things go...which has almost ruined our relationship.
something im not willing to give up on...theres no way.
but for him, im not so certain. the things he says to me shows that he doesnt believe in us anymore. things like "when you have another boyfriend" or "when you have another relationship" and so on.
i just wish he was as certain as i am...then we'd both be on the same page, ive decided that im going to try anything i can to save us...anything.
weve been through so much that there is no way that im going to let this ruin us...nope. i just hope he isnt ready to let that happen.
i just want to be and feel loved.
and as bad as is sounds...i dont feel it as strong as it once was. at one time i was for sure that all he wanted was to be with me forever...and now...thats not the case and he cant deny it either.
if you read this baby...get mad if you want..its just my true feelings and if you cant handle them then talk to me about it, theres no reason to get mad. just consider it. take it to heart and maybe try to help me make it better. i know if i saw you were feeling like this then id do anything to make you think the opposite. not get mad.
i just love him so much...i dont know if he thinks so. thats just how i feel...and its not going to change and its not a lie.
plus also many other things in my life are so stressful and its alot to handle for me.
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[Thu, January 26th, 2006 @ 11:21pm] |
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omg.
im going to the fall out boy concert in April!!!!!
AHHHH! hehehe
Im sooo excited you dont even know.
i have the best boyfriend ever to get those tickets for me.
17A Row 10 Seats 10 & 11
i cannot wait.
:)
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[Wed, January 18th, 2006 @ 12:30am] |
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im having an impulse..
i want my hair black.like..... real blackkkk i think it looks soooo pretty on girls...ugh.
it just wold never look good on me
& im jealous...
UGH
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